She wishes everyday that he would love her as much as she loves him.
She knows he never will.
She prays he will prove where his heart lies.
He never does.
He is honest about where he is. His priorities that do not include her.
She asked to be put first for once. He said no.
She felt like an idiot.
In his presence, she is inspired
Outside she is lost
Goodbye is like a knife to warm bread. It’s smooth, subtle, but complete
It’s angers her that together, she is alive
Apart she dies
Apart she is confused about passion
Apart she is comfortable
Apart she lets fear win
In order for them to truly know one another, they must first know themselves.
She did it
She made the mistake and looked at someone else and envied their love
No meeting’s….she can get work done today.
5 meeting invites
It’s 4pm as she sits down to begin her day.
It’s 4:30, she has to leave to be on time.
More work at home.
Ding: I’m sorry ma’am, the information does not exist…
She’ll have to create the report manually
2 hours in traffic, she’s home.
Mom, I know I spent all your money this weekend, but I hope you have money left to buy class snacks tomorrow.
Oh no, she knows she’s struggling.
Mail: Look for the silver lining…
She’s needs to hear from her love.
He didn’t want to hear her cry.
She now knows the feeling of being LOST.
If this, then this, but if that, then that….
No level of strength can save her.
She has always been given direction; covered. Now her freedom is a gift and a curse.
She now understands.
She knows she is different now, but feels the same. She is quieter, more thoughtful, more thought filled.
She’s found her priority in his world.
No more questions, no more doubts.
One day, it won’t hurt. She’s just waiting now.
Do you wake up feeling that a piece of you has left?
Going through the day feeling slightly incomplete. Something is missing and you can’t quite attach.
Do you carry on through your normalities wondering am I a part of her normality?
Did she just think of me as I thought of her?
Do you ache for simple touch? Her breath across your neck? Her silence?
Do you grow enraged when you realize she has not realized you?
Do you grow calm comforted by the thought that she has your heart and you have hers?
Do you trust?
Do you fear losing her?
Do you fear losing yourself in her?
Do you fear her support of your dreams will waiver? She has been your rock.
Do you fear her strength will die?
Do you worry if she’s whole with you in her existence? Do you desire to fill her gaps?
Do you want to parade her existence to the world as a part of your existence in the world?
Are you proud? Of her?
Do you desire to give her absolute happiness? To let her know she is always your first priority?
Does she make you think beyond a thought?
Does she touch your soul?
He loves her so differently. It’s truly unfamiliar to her. He doesn’t hide her or his love for her. He’s inclusive, which is natural for him. She is his forever +1.
This is unfamiliar to her, so she pushes back and makes it complicated. He’s not complicated, he’s just…
She thinks, “how is it so effortless for him?”
He pushes her and says, “I’m not worried about you breaking up with me.” He’s not afraid to challenge.
Why is she so afraid of how he loves?