Everything is excruciating now
He takes so much with him when he says goodbye
I climb into this opaque space
To have and not have
To miss and to; you should not miss
To wonder and to envy an unknown
Depressed in another form; the form of love
Love should not share this unclear space
Love pushes me down, while I try to climb out of his space
Walking away from this home feels home
Why can’t I just walk? Walk to build my home. To build my home with this other
Today I desire alone in lieu of home
Goodnight
……
Good Morning
Thoughts of our home push away the alone
The opaque becomes translucent
My direction is clear
Until the sun sets…
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